Hello world! This week has been great, busy, but great. Monday I had to go to the doctor for my six week post-partum check up. Normally this would be a very dreaded experience, well glad to know something still is "normal." The good part was being reassured that the spare tire that currently resides around my waist and all of the other weird stuff I've been experiencing are to be expected. Yay! Another pleasant tidbit was that I am healing very well and the parts are going back to the shop nicely. Now what was not so peachy was mother nature's gift of more wintry weather. I am beyond ready for warmer temps and flip flops. The other unpleasant aspect of this day was leaving my baby girl home with daddy. It was the first time since her birth that I was going solo. I was not a fan. I cried like a little baby. I felt like the world was going to stop turning, the sun would not rise again, and my heart might literally break into. Dramatic I know, but sometimes such is the reality of my life. Luckily it is not yet her life. She slept like an angel the entire hour and a half I was gone. She was none the wiser. While I was thrilled she was good for daddy and that she was okay, a little whimper for mommy would not have hurt anyone would it? Thankfully I got over myself and we snuggled the rest of the day. It seems each day is a lesson on how valuable time really is, especially given all of the recent tragedies where lives have been lost so unexpectedly and unfairly.
Despite my dramatic thoughts regarding the Earth's rotation on Monday, I found that all was well on Tuesday. You may remember me mentioning our lovely Homebuilders group at Church? Well the wonderful ladies whom I have grown to truly love invited me to join the Mothers of Preschoolers (MOPs) group. You would be correct if you were just thinking, you have a seven week old newborn who very well may be the brightest child on the planet, but she is not in preschool yet. Apparently the "preschoolers" part is not a deal breaker requirement for admission. The moms have kids of all ages. Lana and I are in baby!! Well we were this Tuesday when I finally decided to put myself out there and go for it. You see I have learned many things performing analyzing myself over and over and over again. One such thing is that despite my previous beliefs about myself, I might not be as extroverted as I thought. Now this makes the task of establishing a circle of Colorado friends and finding a place in our new community a little difficult. This kind of venturing out does not come easily for me. Ask my sweet husband who makes it one of his many pet projects. I am a social person, in fact on most occasions I love people. Call it what you will, but there is something that scares me about putting myself out there with strangers, especially ones that I hope to one day make my BFF. I guess I feel I am not enough in most instances. For example, I am not stylish enough, educated enough, aware enough of the "it" couples in Hollywood, etc. Now I realize that this sounds silly to some and to others it may sound a little too heavy, dear diary, for this post, but this is real. What is enough? Who gets to determine the level of enough? I do not have the answers to those questions and I realize that this is a major weakness for me. Nevertheless, I will overcome and grow up one day. Ha! Anywhoo...I am not going to make friends and have the blog-worthy adventures I want to write about if I keep us in the confines of our house all the time. So I was determined to go despite the obstacles rearing their ugly heads. It was so worth it! We met the group, had brunch, and socialized. The group held a devotion and discusion on motherhood being the most difficult. and most rewarding, job around. It does not come with a paycheck, a retirement plan, vacation days, office parties, etc. When you have a bad day or things are not going your way, you don't get to turn in your "pink slip" or call in sick. Please do not think for a red hot minute that I am saying my baby girl is not the BEST and that motherhood is not the most wonderful job I have ever held. It is indeed and I am loving every moment. However, as I have mentioned to you all in the last post, there is a tendency to feel the unhealthy need to compare yourselves to others that may seem to have it all together so much better than you. This group comes together to support and encourage one another through all of these times, good and not so good. They were real. They were honest. They were open. And they are just what I need in my life. I felt "normal," accepted, loved, and "enough." So long story short (haha I know I know I'm long-winded these days), there are at least two very valuable takeaways from this Tuesday with MOPs. They are: if you are a new mom, join one of these groups ASAP and if you have similar weaknesses, put yourself out there and reap the reward of personal growth.
The end of the week was not as rosey as the beginning. Thursday sweet girl had to go get her shots for her two month check up and in preparation for our upcoming trip home to Georgia. I was so nervous and worried about her possible reactions and a chance of uncontrollable crying. As with everything else, she was a champ. She cried when they gave her the shots and then she slept. It was a fine example of worrying over nothing. To celebrate the great report from the doctor and Lana's wonderful behavior, we sought some retail therapy. Lana was the intended patient and as I learned on Monday, she was oblivious. I guess it too was more for me than her. Regardless of all of that, she now has several adorable little outfits to model for the Grammys when we go home. Having a little girl is so fun!! You always have an acceptable excuse to shop!
Now that it has taken me two days to finish this post, I must bid you farewell for the time being. I need to make a menu for the week, a grocery list, a to-do list so I do not forget anything, oh and get to sleep!! More will come soon for sure as we make our maiden voyage back home as a mommy and her mini me. Goodnight all!